Bounce (A Truer Story)

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by Liam Scheff                     I’m almost human today, having reverted from whatever maudlin and darkly creative state the world usually extrudes me, into a more wide-open pose. Perhaps it was my intersection with a woman accelerating blindly into the intersection yesterday. I’ll restrain myself from a [...]

What They Said: Pete Townshend

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“The artistic process, perhaps apart from ballet and Victorian theater, it doesn’t engage the physical form the way that rock does. And particularly not the kind of fighting cock, peacock male thing. It’s a kind of courtship. All that undermines what is really going on in rock, which is a deep, deep , awful and [...]

Why We Lack Courage

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Why we lack courage * We lack courage because if we happen sometimes to be brave as individuals we know that we will for sure be undercut by committees (by managers).  Once this has happened, once some individual has done the right thing (what would strike any individual as the right thing – maybe just [...]

Great Photo of Barbara McClintock

Barbara McClintock, Rutland Road, Brooklyn early 1920s (not holding corn)

“She had never married, she had not, as an adult or as a child, ever pursued any of the goals that were conventional for women. She had never had any interest in what she called “decorating the torso.” …Barbara McClintock has lived most of her life alone–physically, emotionally, and intellectually. But no one who has [...]

The Sleeping Mouse

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We were sitting in the two easy chairs right outside the house, Åke and I and it was time to unpack a big box of Swedish history I was beginning to possibly misinterpret. I’d just returned to Runmarö after being away for a couple of weeks. All the guests (over 40) who’d descended on the [...]

Dorion Sagan on Lynn Margulis: An Evolutionary Eulogy

This morning I received this link from Dorion Sagan, and though I generally avoid publishing non-original material, this is, to my mind and ear, such an exceptional piece of writing and thinking that I wanted to share it. I wonder if any grieving grandchildren anywhere on earth have ever received such exquisite comfort as Dorion [...]

The Whale Is Behind You

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The voice in my head said: “So. Would it be possible to document a family?” [Equally soundlessly I replied:] “This family?” The voice nodded. “The only way to do it honestly would be to melt the spoon. Jump in after them. Tell the whole truth. Otherwise you’d get too much power and that would be [...]

That Was All That Happened

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Judging from her feet, she was no princess. Size 9, with toes that were long, one shaped like a tennis racket, bunions, bones adrift. They hurt, in all shoes except sneakers. She walked fast and hard, up and down the streets of Manhattan. She could clip 20 blocks in 15 minutes, easily. Thinking, thinking, thinking. [...]

My Father’s Dream

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My father calls me every night, or almost every night, between 9:30 and 10:30 pm, after the show. He is now 82. I cherish our talks, and often take notes. This summer we talked many evenings about Normandy, and his theory that it should have happened somewhere else, but I’d have to find my notes [...]

Alice Miller’s Powerchord

The opening graph to Alice Miller’s classic, Prisoners of Childhood: The Search For The True Self, (original title) strikes like a bell. I never tire of reading it: “We live in a culture that encourages us not to take our own suffering seriously, but rather to make light of it or even to laugh about [...]

Romanesque Arches

An Angel with no face embraced me and whispered through my whole body: ‘Don’t be ashamed of being human, be proud! Inside you vault open behind vault endlessly. You will never be complete, that’s how it’s meant to be.’ Blind with tears I was pushed out on the sun-seething piazza together with Mr. and Mrs. [...]

Keep The Truth Barrier Running With A Small Donation

If we can raise even a small amount of money we can keep the site going and hopefully grow. Thank you for lending us your spirit and attention. We hope to grow big and strong in 2013. You can donate $1 or $5, and it will help a lot. You can use GoFundMe or the [...]

The Crucible: Dangerous and Primitive HIV Criminalization Laws Are Claiming More and More Victims: One Group Is Doing Something About It

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After Yvonne Nicole Andrews left an ex-boyfriend who had repeatedly assaulted her, he turned around and falsely accused her of exposing a total of four men to HIV, none of whom she had ever met. [All four tested negative.] Soon, before she knew what was happening, Ms. Andrews found herself in a Florida prison cell facing a sixty-year sentence. Despite hospital records documenting the injuries, which included a badly sprained neck, severe concussions, and more, and despite overt statements that he planned to kill her, her ex used the laws to become make her the criminal. He was never charged.

The blond, soft-spoken mother of two had languished in county jail for several months when OMSJ contacted her attorney and prepared her defense.

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by Gary Ryan  

Small Heart

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                                –for Jan Jozef Szczepanski       The bullet that I shot at the time of the great war made a circle around the globe and struck me in the back   at the least suitable moment when I [...]

The Recoil: The Anxiety Of Command (Crowds and Power)

War on Life: The Kidnapping And Torture of Rico Martinez Nagel

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         ”They aren’t gonna quit. It doesn’t end. There can’t be two of them. Can you imagine if Lindsey had a baby after 22 years and the baby lived? Can you imagine? It didn’t happen to Lindsey. It happened to Rico.” Steve Nagel, grandfather of Rico         We’ve kept [...]

Radio Free Rico

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It has been the most astonishing week, experiencing the enormous reaction from around the world to the plight of little Rico Martinez Nagel, in what seems to be the death-throes of the rogue AIDS machine. Here at TTB,  other blogs,on Facebook, on Twitter, on radio, and even local TV, the outrage, sorrow, and commitment have formed [...]

High Noon: Peter Duesberg on Rico Martinez Nagel and The Madness At Hand

Dear all – dissident and non-dissident Americans, This is “High Noon” for all of us to save a little baby. We have only time for facts now – the facts of life and biology. The clock is ticking for a little baby on DNA chain-terminators including AZT, just as it was in High Noon. Here [...]

Breaking News: Rico Has Been Released From Hospital

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Text from Cheryl Nagel, 2:00 pm EDT, March 8, reads:   “Hey gals, Rico is almost home. ”   “I am standing outside the cafe waiting to get them on film when they arrive. They should be here any minute.”  

Rico Home: Mirthless Bolsheviks Who Almost Killed Him Still In Command And Without Remorse

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  We are all heartened and  grateful for all the good-hearted people who came here from all over the world this week, and are still coming, to support baby Rico, who as we reported earlier today is HOME. People have been asking:  Do his parents still have to medicate him? The answer is absolutely. It [...]

AIDS Industry Defeated As Rico Ends Media Blackout

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 I want to speak clearly. In the evolution of democracy the first step is this: citizens outside the Party, including writers, should not have to applaud things with which they do not agree. To make anyone do so is unfair and unworthy of man. But to force a writer to do so is to make [...]

Darkness At Noon: GOFUNDME DELETES TRUTH BARRIER ACCOUNT AFTER DONATIONS MADE

As I posted here, (old post at bottom) last week, I created a donation page for The Truth Barrier at GoFundMe, one of the major crowd funding sites. In the first day I raised $450. I was quite surprised to find, last night, that I was getting emails from GoFundMe telling me donors funds had [...]

Now It’s War: Crowd Fury Rises Against TED Elites For Pulling Sheldrake and Hancock Talks

The Discharge   The most important occurrence within the crowd is the discharge. Before this the crowd does not actually exist; it is the discharge which creates it. This is the moment when all who belong to the crowd get rid of their differences and feel equal.   Elias Canetti, Crowds and Power   The Dissolution [...]

For Profit HIV Forum Abuses, Threatens, and Bans HIV Positive Man Who Posts Naturopath Protocol

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CENSORSHIP FROM POZ MAGAZINE – HIV STIGMA WITHIN THE HIV+ COMMUNITY By John Strangis After testing positive on an HIV antibody test, and taking medication for more than a year, I became aware of the dissident perspective on the matter. After carefully comparing the orthodox and dissident sides of the issue, I made the personal [...]

Indomitable Lynn

Lynn Margulis, Puffers Pond, 2010

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         By Dorion Sagan           Unlike many, perhaps, she continued to grow and learn until the end. One of the last projects she was involved in was the characterization of the symbiotic bryozoan, Pectinatella magnifica, who, like Lynn, loved to dwell in the possibility of Puffers Pond, the [...]

Thought Crime Trial Against Nagel/Martinez Family Adjourned

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Brownsdale, MN This is a short dispatch written to convey the essential facts of what happened on April 1 and 2, in the court case against John Martinez and Lindsey Nagel, parents of Rico Martinez Nagel.  It’s early morning in Brownsdale MN, a very small town near the Iowa border, about two hours from Minneapolis. [...]

Update: Rico Enjoys First Drug Free Days Of His Life: Laughs

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(Update is a copy of a Facebook Post) I spoke with Cheryl Nagel this evening and she updated me on the situation with her grandson Rico, and said I could share it. Rico was seen by several different doctors today. They are anxious to get him back on ARVs but not before he is tested [...]

Can Electron Microscopy Resolve The HIV Battle? An Exclusive Interview with EM Pioneer Dr. Étienne de Harven

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I have known Belgian scientist (pathologist and electron microscopist) Dr.  Étienne de Harven since 1993, when he introduced himself to me at a conference, with characteristic graciousness and enthusiasm, clasped my hands, and said he had translated my 1992 SPIN article Fatal Distraction into French. I was of course delighted. I was writing about this [...]

Nushawn Williams Verdict

This afternoon I received this email from OMSJ’s Clark Baker, about the Nushawn Williams Civil Commitment verdict in Buffalo: Nushawn just called me – he said that the jury deliberated for 25 minutes before finding him guilty. I told him that there are a lot of constitutional problems with the law and that we will [...]

Touching Hunger–Fiction by Peter S. Kahrmann

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Two weeks before she died Mary switched to day shift at Mookie’s Diner. She and Mickey Quinn wanted more time together. Mickey was the day chef. He’d taken the job fourteen months earlier after moving back to the neighborhood. He’d tired of life in the big city; thirteen years was enough.    Life had not been [...]

1971

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Anyway I had a goldfish, a common Woolworth’s goldfish, who I brought home in a water filled plastic bag, and somebody, a man named Rick I think, who worked for my father, said it would be safe to place him in a concrete planter on the terrace, filled with water. Everybody is always doing their [...]

Truth Barriers [Seed of Novel]

I can try to put it down more or less but you won’t believe a word of it. I want to counsel you to close your eyes, look the other way, or whatever you can to counter the filthy truth-seeking habit that landed me where I am. Forget the truth like you forget nightmares about [...]

A Child’s Heart In A Woman’s Body

“Do your thing,” he said, when she said she needed to do something. All of a sudden she did not know what she “needed” to do. She was thinking there was some email she needed to send regarding something she had not done, but she was confused. She wanted to talk to him and ask [...]

What They Said: Theodore I. Rubin

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“I must learn to love the fool in me–the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries. It alone protects me against that utterly self-controlled, masterful tyrant whom I also [...]

Discovering The Diamonds of René Char

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I am staying in a loft in Bushwick, Brooklyn that has many intriguing books I sometimes pull from the shelves. One that has pierced my heart is “Selected Poems” by renowned French poet René Char, who I never read before. Char is sometimes referred to as a “surrealist” which may be why I was phobic [...]

The Crystal

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                          I don’t know if you can see the crystal yet. On clear nights when your heart has good reception, when you have managed to push aside your illusions, noise, static, your notions that you were not loved–you can begin to decipher the [...]

Let Us Now Praise Famous Death Dwarves

I turned to Lester Bangs today to ponder Lou Reed, the totally encrypted enigma of rock who just died, as you probably know. I tried to find the text of Bangs’ legendary interview with Lou Reed from Creem, Let us Now Praise Famous Death Dwarves, , and I found it as a PDF, but WordPress [...]

Sunday

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In church, today, an elderly couple sat two pews in front of me, a bit apart. They both had short, grey hair. He reached over and stroked the nape of her neck, tenderly. I quickly decided this was happening because they were Christian, so not overcome with the hatred that has consumed men and women. [...]

What They Said: Junot Diaz

“The biggest megaphones want to talk about the person on top. They want to talk about the hero, the winner. But the little megaphones, you’re in a library with your librarian, you’re working at the church in the basement, helping folks out, you’re coming in to a home and reading to elderly. There are all [...]

Poetry: Sandra Cisneros (via Junot Diaz)

One Last Poem For Richard December 24th and we’re through again. This time for good I know because I didn’t throw you out — and anyway we waved. No shoes. No angry doors. We folded clothes and went our separate ways. You left behind that flannel shirt of yours I liked but remembered to take [...]

The Secret (A very short play)

It’s 2018, late fall. Two friends meet in an enclave of Central Park known to contain a sonic dead spot, where conversation can’t be overheard. It’s dusk.    

Quite Simply The Greatest Cat Video Ever Made

My son Jeremy showed me this  sublime video last night. There are thousands of “funny” or even “hiilarious” animal videos on the Internet but few deserve to be called sublime. It could prevent suicides, if it were shown on emergency screens affixed to bridges. It could save marriages. It could replace 10 years of therapy. [...]

Forest Jewels With No Dreams

It seems that magic strings strung with irresistible dreams are a sure route to being roped-in by disappointment. When I was a little boy, the little girls on my block taught me how to make headwear and necklaces from repeated insertion of the stems of tiny wildflowers into each other. Do you remember those? Later, [...]

Outtake: The Book Of Promethea

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              Promethea kept stringing irresistible dreams on her magic string. She made   me a necklace that was really soothing. That is why I would like Promethea’s book to “end” here, like that: everyone can try on the necklace; and you can add all the things you would really like [...]

Yes

I have a new mantra. I say the word “yes,” over and over, out loud, or to myself. Every time I say it I feel I am setting sail on a small sailboat. I draw my finger in the water. The water is warm and glittering in the sun. The past can sort itself out, [...]

My Dad

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By Paul Murray                     I had vivid recollections of my dad just now. How he smelt: that fusion of cologne, cigarettes and – well just his own unique and comforting    smell. How he looked at me when I’d said something sensible or surprising – like he [...]

Epigram: Poem by Tomas Tranströmer

Epigram   The buildings of capital, the hives of the killer bees, honey for the few. He served there. But in the dark tunnel he unfolded his wings and flew when no one was looking. He had to live his life again.       –Tomas Tranströmer, For The Living And Dead, 1989