I watched many “Pizzagate” videos in recent weeks, with a sensation like a vise closing in on my temples. An otherworldly headache, blurred vision, an inter-cellular sense that all hope of normalcy is forever lost.
Nobody knows WTF is going on, but I have to tell you there are millions of dots in my memory bank that are in strange ways floating back to me, though I can’t describe yet, what I mean. For so many years, I was exposed to so many things I was not “allowed” to be alarmed about, because of deep seated cultural taboos that restricted healthy alarm. One was always conditioned to consider the highly abnormal normal.
I am exhausted from decades of having to always, always, always reassure the outside world that “we don’t know what it means.”
So I’ll say it again: We don’t know what it means.
One repeats this tea-parlor prayer, as though it will confer protection against the most dreaded accusation of being overly alarmed (about incredibly alarming things) while no shame was ever attached to being insufficiently alarmed.
I chose this video because it seemed most succinct.
I am aware of the risk of “mass hysteria.”
But for the love of Christ, what is this?